Chocolate or Date?

I could have gone for a dinner&cinema date night with a really nice guy but instead, I decided to go home with a £1 chocolate bar and 200g of sugar in my belly, wondering if I was becoming too homely or just too dumb.

Since I got to England the only times I've been out were when I suddenly got too drunk not to say no to a good house party - where I've spent most of the time throwing Maltesers into other guest's mouths - and two days ago when I decided to go to the cinema by myself - fun story to be told.

If someone told me this, I'd probably ask them if they were ok, I mean, going to the cinema alone is normal but the Maltesers thing, that's just sad. The thing is, I am truly fine. I am loving my course, loving my university and loving the people I live with. I'm loving all of it without having gone to a real party yet but - I've recently just turned 18 - that just doesn't feel 'right'.

Am I becoming the "old soul in a young body" that I've never excepted/wanted to be?

Well, whatever it's happening with me, I'm about to find out tomorrow night - I'm going party!

x.